I haven't posted in over month. Right now I just feel like such  a slacker, I'm amazed that I'm even writing this. Lately it's seems like I kept thinking of things to post about, but then I never felt like it or got around to it, like a typical slacker. So now, here i am posting but I forget all the great things I was gonna write about.

Yesterday I went on a walk with Kevin and we ran through somone else's yard because they had a sprinkler in it. That was fun.

Oh yea, now I remember one of the things I was gonna post about.

CHANGING:

I have learned over my extensive period of existance that things change. But it has only been in the last while that I have learned that people change too. And still even more recently that I have come to accept that that is ok.

Whenever anyone has looked at me and told me "You're different than you used to be" I immediately begin to freak out. Sometimes I freak out for good reason becuase I've been acting like a jerk. I just heard it again the other day and I still felt that little voice that insisted that I'm still the same, but it didn't worry me quite as much as usual because I think I finally realize that it's normal for people to change.Not that they totally change but maybe it's mostly their perspectives that change. I'm not the same person as I was in high-school, and neither are my friends or maybe I should say that our perspectives are different now that we're on the other side of our school days. Things are different. They will never be that way again. Being a sentimental person, that thought has often saddened me because especially the last years of high-school were a lot of fun. But I think that I'm finally learning to accept that life goes on. People change, you love them as much but they can't stay the same. The experiences we have shape our lives. We can't live like we did before we had those experiences because our perspective has changed.

I just hope and pray that as I continue to experience life I will continue to change my perspectives so that I can see the world and my life more as God sees it. I pray that the experiences I have will have positive, not negative effects. And I think that's our choice. We can see someone in need and realize that there are many people like them, with the same need, and we can choose to help him/her. Or, we can become aware of this persons great need and realize that you can never extinguish it from the lives of everyone suffering in such a way, and become cyinical and refuse to help the few that you can.. I pray that change will continue in my life. Changing me more and more into the image of Christ.

Sometimes it's sad to see good things come to an end, but just think of it as a journey. There are many more great places to go. Embrace it.